I believe everything`s temporary.

I want to move on and you have to as well. It`ll only hurt me more if you keep holding on to something that can`t be fixed right now.

I want to do this for myself, and I can`t do that if you`re like this. I don`t want to be forever tied up with this loneliness. It feels like being kept inside a cage with lost keys. You of all people understand me, you should know.

I want to be free and be happy again. So this is the last time I`ll ever talk about you again, even if you`re always in my mind.

Goodbye.

Of broken hearts and painful love.

Hi, I miss you terribly and I hope you feel the same way.

I don`t know if I`m saying this a bit ahead but I don`t think I can fall in love with someone else like how I fell for you. I know I`m being repetitive on what I`m saying but it`s true. And it`s painful. What if I met someone else along the way? What if I accidentally fall in love with that someone? I don`t want that. I only want you. Only you.

That`s why I feel forever. We`re unfinished business. You and I.

Au revoir.

`Cause we`re moving on and we can`t slow down.

I just got back from retreat last Wednesday and I couldn`t be anymore happier. We were told not to share it in too much details but I guess it`s safe to say that those three days were actually the best three days I`ve had in high school.

My favorite part will have to be the SOP, it`s a shortcut for the term "Sign Of Peace" and during that time, we`re allowed to give our classmates either a hug, pat or handshake. I chose to give lots and lots of hug because 1) I`m a hug person, I want to give one as much as possible and 2) I like receiving one in return. It`s also at this time wherein I get to hug my bestfriend. I guess this retreat became special to me because I get to bond with my bestfriend. Before the said event, I hardly have the time to speak with him even if he`s my classmate and it`s actually kind of sad until now. :)

I also miss everytime we`ll rush into the refectory to dine and insult the food in the most subtle way. We were trying our best to avoid doing something bad, we`re at a retreat after all. Plus, the part wherein we`re almost late yet we still got lost on our way which made us really late for some sessions. We even chose to wear our PJs for the last sessions which made the place feel more like home.

Then everyone started to share how they love our section and how they`re enjoying every single bit of their last days with each other. It`s really... liberating. To finally say I love Catz and move on from Pius. Everyone and every memory I had with Pius will always hold a special place in my heart, I also couldn`t deny that they`re my favorite out of all but Catz has something that Pius don`t. And I can`t place my finger on it. That`s what makes them great.

"Come and See"

Let`s get these teen hearts beating faster.

From L-R: Andre, Liezl, Patrick, Shann, Me, Charrie, Shaira.

Another date with DI !! Spent half of my junior year with them, and now, spending the remaining days of summer with them. We could never be complete. Due to appointments and other family events, some can`t come with us. (Even on Berniece`s recital and her sister, Ella`s birthday.)

We pretty much took pictures the whole day. That is, of course, until we got tired of posing and smiling. We were dropped off at PICC, walked around the place. We were supposed to play volleyball but Cha forgot to bring the ball. There`re no bike rentals anymore! There goes my childhood.

After walking for at least 30 minutes under the scorching sun, we decided to go to MOA. But since the mall will still open a few hours later, we chilled by the sea side. (We left the hometown by 6am, so we got there within 20 minutes.)

One minute, we were basking under the sun`s glorious rays then the rain just decided to drop a huge one on us. Waited for a few more minutes for the mall to open, and voila! Grabbed some Blizzards then watched Killers. Ashton Kutcher was hott, I didn`t know he was THAT hott. This is in italics for a reason. It was an awesome movie, all in all. Cool moves, funny moments. Giving it a 4 out of 5 since I really enjoyed seeing it.

WE WENT TO TRINOMA. From one end to the other, can you imagine how we were inside the car on the way home?

060110.

The Fashion Diaries

Hello to the first day of June!

Today was the last day for VOX`s training. Since I was showing my legs already yesterday, how about covering it up for today? I found an old tee which was bought at States. Yes, those are Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck being a badass. I cut it, by the way. Threw in black leggings which I bought at Greenhills. White sneakers which, if you haven`t noticed yet, are my season`s must have. I`m trying to collect it in different colors. Oh, and while I was rummaging my jewelry box earlier, I found this Cleopatra inspired bracelet! It`s adorable.

Oversized tee, States. Black leggings, Greenhills. White sneakers, Local department store. Gold Bangle, Thrift store.

I`m loving how this wall is full of vandalism. <3

053110.

The Fashion Diaries

I`ve been fond of tucking my shirt in these days. Probably for a change of style since shirt on top of shorts would look so dull, I decided to play around with it. Putting belts would just complete the look. Sometimes I`d prefer thinner belts on top of one another, less often I go with thick belts with outstanding color or design.

The shirt was cut by yours truly. I`ve been cutting my shirts into the styles I want lately, also achieving the carefree look. It`s pretty easy, you can practice at some of your old shirts before cutting the real one.

T-shirt, Men`s section department store. Pink belt, Greenhills. Black belt, Jellybean. Faded denim shorts, Greenhills. Silver bangles, Thrift store.

Check out my Lookbook to hype!

On a horrible day.

Our maid of 3 years left today. They`re a family -- wife, husband and 2 children. The wife, with one of the kids, left 2 weeks ago. She was supposed to leave her son there in the province, "Hindi po ako makapag trabaho ng maayos pag nandito anak ko," she said. My mom and I find this entirely stupid but we didn`t say anything since it`s not in our place to dictate them what to do with their lives.

Last week, she contacted my mother, asking for money to buy a ticket so she can go back to Manila. Even with hesitation, my mom agreed just so she could go back safely.

Three days already passed yet she still hasn`t arrived. Her husband, as I`ve noticed, is always spacing out, more often than before. Probably thinking about his wife, I concluded.

Earlier, I got into a little spat with the man. I guess I was not on a good mood from the moment I woke up, which made me lose my temper. I can handle it, until earlier. We confronted one another on the way home. The next thing I know, he`s packing his things. He called his daughter to pack too. I got a little bit guilty because I think I went overboard for what I`ve done earlier until I found out the reason of their leaving. His wife called, saying that she`ll never return again. She and her son will stay at Iloilo and the husband and the other child will stay at Antipolo first, fend for themselves until they`ve saved enough money to go to Iloilo as well.

It`s not in my place to impose what they`re supposed to do, but I find all of these completely stupid. First, she`s a mother. How can she just do those things and not think about the other child she left here? Second, if that`s her plan from the start, then she should`ve just brought her daughter along. Imagine leaving your child behind without a permanent settlement?

The whole family`s gone now. And we have to stop thinking about them, just like what my mom said. We have our own life, we should think of ours before theirs. It`s up to them if they want to experience a hard life.

On a completely unrelated note, this photo was taken at the maid`s room. I liked how this was captured, even if I don`t own any professional camera, my trusty digital camera will always be to the rescue! ;) (The photo isn`t edited in any way except for cropping.)